Author: bill
i’m pretty well-cultured
i like films which are indie
subtitled movies
even in hindi
classics of cinema
filled with erudite chatter
serious subjects
and challenging matter
i’ve seen most of rohmer
bergman, fellini
hitchcock, truffaut
and some pasolini
but then my good taste
will die in a flash
and i actively search
for films that are trash
togas and sandals
rude horror schlock
brit twit comedians
weepers i mock
monsters and gories
commercial crap
sticky sweet stories
oozing with sap
i love the ballet
the symphony thrills
i’m highly impressed
by checkov’s deft skills
i seek out shakespeare
wherever i can
then high-art ideals
will suddenly crash
and that’s when i go
straight for the trash
boulevard comedies
drag queens who pose
soap opera tackiness
and big glitzy shows
even the latest commercialized smash
sometimes i really crave trash
i keep excellent company
authors and thinkers
at the top of their game
doctors, attorneys
who’ve earned quite a name
for their work
for their minds
i seek out fine artists
and creative kinds
i dig conversation
that’s heady and brash
but sometimes i’d rather talk trash
with hookers and addicts
nutcases and bums
all of the kooks
with which this city hums
the outcasts
the losers
whose bets were too rash
here’s to the pleasure
of all kinds of trash
my 9-11 story and memorial pics
My 9/11 Story
For reasons which will become apparent, my 9/11 story starts a month before the tragedy. My friends Patty and Andrew Freedman had invited me to their beautiful home in
While there, Patty and Andrew introduced me to their neighbor, Ruth McCourt. She was a lovely lass from
Ruth was also friends with Katherine Hepburn’s family. An Irish connection? Whatever – she was telling me how Katherine was in very bad shape at the time. We just had a really good gab.
After she left, Patty told me Ruth’s husband, who had been to dinner there the night before, had recently been diagnosed with very serious cancer and wasn’t expected to live for more than a few months. Very sad, especially as their daughter was so young. He was a couple decades older than Ruth (or at least looked that way, maybe the cancer made him look older than he was).
On September 8th, Bruce and I departed for a long-planned trip to
We landed in Rome on the 9th. Around
So we continued down the street, saying, “Could that be true?” The fact that they had said two planes seemed particularly odd – we could appreciate how in a freak accident a Cessna or some other small craft might crash into one of the buildings. But two?
We gave up trying to find the cocktail lounge and came to the piazza in front of the Pantheon. A lot of the surrounding restaurants had tables out in the piazza so we found one and ordered drinks. Then I went inside to find a bathroom. As I was coming out I heard another American woman say, “
I found Bruce and told him what I’d heard. Needless to say we were freaking out and desperate to find out something, anything. Unlike
The next day we were able to get a bit more news – the International Herald Tribune – for one. We were scheduled to take a train to
I got the car, picked up Bruce and we drove to
While we were still registering, the woman behind the desk said, “There’s a call for you.” Luckily we’d given our itinerary to several people and our dear friend Glen was calling. We were so happy to hear from a New Yorker. Glen, who loves the City beyond words, was in tears, trying to fill us in on all that was going on.
From then on, all our hotels got an English version of CNN and it was hard to tear ourselves away from the TV and go out and see
About meeting Americans – Bruce and I tend to keep pretty much to ourselves when traveling. We’re not big on striking up conversations with strangers. But that sure changed this trip. Whenever we heard other Americans we were instantly asking what they knew, where they’d been when they found out. Of course, us being New Yorkers always elicited lots of sympathy and concern.
I managed to call my phone machine and it had shut down because people were calling from all over the world to check on me. I know a lot of people and, of course, they know I live in the City, but not many knew that we live about as far away as it’s possible to get from the WTC and still be on the
We met one young couple from
In spite of everything, we did have a lovely trip. And by the end of it, flights were being restored. Plus nobody was flying, so we didn’t have trouble getting home. But coming into the City and seeing the hole in the skyline where the
Also, though we had checked in with Chingis by phone and he’d said they were having a lot of trouble, we really didn’t have any idea. Of course they had all sorts of issues – their truck not being allowed into the City, their suppliers not operating, etc. So the demolition was complete, but the renovation had hardly started, so our apartment was not habitable and wouldn’t be for at least a week. Glen and Gino kindly took us in.
On one of our return flights, we had received a complimentary copy of the British tabloid magazine Hello. It had a feature about
Then a couple weeks after we returned I heard from Patty Freedman, asking if I remembered her neighbor Ruth McCourt? Of course I did. We’d had such a nice talk. Patty then told me that Ruth and her daughter were on the first plane to hit the towers – the trip to
I went back to my copy of Hello and there was a full-page picture of Ruth. It was an older photo, she had a different hair-cut and I’d glanced at it when I skimmed the magazine on the plane but hadn’t read the names or registered that it was Ruth. Her poor husband – Juliana’s father — a terrible cancer diagnosis and then this. Just one of so many sad stories but a particularly poignant one I think.
This may sound weird, but we were a bit sorry not to have been here on 9/11 and the days following. Because
so many people
are doing better than me
raking in money
and favors
and honey
reaping awards
and acclaim
winning each round
of the game}
that we play
lauded and laureled
wherever they go
why that’s not me
i don’t know
i’m at least as smart
if not smarter by half
i’m told i have heart
and can make people laugh
but i don’t get the plaudits
that go to the favored
by birth or genetics
or connections they’re given
on silver plate platters
as their limos are driven
to red carpet galas
where they’re celebrated
for work
which in truth
they have just delegated
but so many people
are doing much worse
and look at my progress
as unfair
or perverse
they think
they deserve
more unreserved glee
and can’t understand
how i can be
where i am
in the order of pecking
when at the least
we should be neck and necking
instead
i’m ahead
at least in their eyes
leading them to despise
my meager achievements
building resentment
over minor bereavements
and imagined injustice
i guess that no matter
whoever you are
or whatever you do
someone will always
do better than you
while lots of others
will be faring much worse
and they will curse you
under their breath
while you
with the warmness
of lady macbeth
rail against those
who please
some great rewarder
and seem to be higher
in life’s pecking order